Rejecting the idea of tomorrow.

I am officially rejecting the idea of 'tomorrow'.
I can no longer do anything tomorrow, because it doesn't exist.
Today, I am going to stop eating. Right now. Juice fast, water fast, whatever the fuck I want,
But I no longer want to taste food. I don't want to feel it.
I don't want it in my stomach, or in my mouth, or halfway down my throat.
I want to be empty.
I want to be thin.
I want to be something other than fucking crazy.
I want people to say 'you're thin.' or 'i wish i was thin like you'.
I want to be thin and then I will be happy.
I will finally be SOMETHING.
Not just a 'bit' crazy, or a 'bit' skinny, or a 'bit' strange.
I want to be tiny. I want to be mental. I want to be out of this world.
FUCK OFF TOMORROW. I CANNOT START A DIET TOMORROW BECAUSE YOU DON'T EXIST.
It starts RIGHT now.
Thinner.