Tuesday, 22 March 2011


It's been a little while!! I'm generally okay, stressed out from college a little, it seems like there's so much to do before the June exams (which, for the record, should be called MAY exams...). I'm struggling with my weight, which seems to be a regular thing if I'm honest, especially when I get a new boyfriend (he's lovely....another J.....ummm....pattern? Lets call him JG this time :|)

Everything seems to be going so fast...I feel like I've lost the friends I talked to on here a bit, need to start commenting back to people more!!!! I can't remember if I told you about my other blog, that discusses general issues, nothing about EDs or mental health on there though..... it'stoujoursbienthoughts if anyone's interested?
So yes, that's the brief update, hope everyone's okay, I'll try and catch up with blogs soon!!!!

Lily xx

Wednesday, 16 March 2011

Haven't got long

I'm on the train up from London, only 15 mins of free wifi. Been to an English language conference, then shopping, eaten 5 or 6 maryland cookies, and a tiny salad thing from pizza express, good. So tired, I was up at 6 this morning... Make me thinner, pretty please. Xxx

Lily x

Tuesday, 15 March 2011

Eat less

I've been so stupid, eating normally. I thought I'd be fine, healthy even...
But I'm not. I'm fat. Fatter than I've ever been. at 117lbs this morning...I know. Disgusting.
I'm disgusting. I want to stop. Please, someone help me. I want to stop.
I'm going to be thin, okay?

Saturday, 12 March 2011


I threw up for the first time in a long time today, and it felt good. I just wanted to keep going, till all the fat inside me was out. I'm losing myself again, and I don't seem to mind...

Lily x

Sunday, 6 March 2011

Dear Blog

How I've missed you. I have a new blog now too, but old blog, I love you most. You are where I am, really, inside. You are where I'm honest, rather than intelligent.

Hello again, wonder if there's anyone left?
Let me know xxx