That effortlessness, the easiness? I want that perfection.
And yeah, there are flaws in every one of us, but sometimes
the flaws are the perfection in you, and I want that. The
perfect flaw, it couldn't have been any other flaw because it
makes you, like a need to drink tea, or a hole in your tights.
Perfection is so very, very beautiful.

Wow, you're lucky...two in a day :) 14:57

Tried to eat scrambled egg before, but I threw it up. Almost had pasta, but just said no. I feel like I can't eat anything at the moment...I'm just not in the mood. Or, I want to eat, but I just can't, that's really what it feels like. It's lovely :)

115, going dooooown.

Lily xx

I've lost 5 pounds in 5 days...3 days on a liquid fast :D VERY happy indeed. Just another 25 to go until I'm at my GW of 90 :D

I don't feel like eating 18:06

I don't want to eat anymore. Is that okay with you?
I want to stop and be thin for my boyfriend. I want to be thin for my own mind. It's broken.
It's time to be thin, ladies and gentlemen, so let the fun begin.

I loved a boy,
With a golden glow and
A broken soul.

Summer diet has started 17:35

SORRY! you know why...
I am :/

Anyway, summer diet has started...let's drop 10 pounds before Corfuuuu!!!!

Loves,

vanishact

Long Time 10:49

Exams done..writing a massive essay for a psychology competition at Cambridge...fun stuff...
Exhausted. Trying to keep up with everything else, run down, tired.
Concerned about J. My J, new J. JG. We don't really talk, we just....live.
And keep living. If something happens, we don't talk, we just live and keep going.
Got big decisions to make. Which uni, which course, which town.
What job, what house, what life? How many children and what type of dog.
Seems too much for a 16 year old.
They want me to pick a uni when I can't even legally drink, or place a bet.
Well I'm gambling with my life aren't I? I need something to wash it down with.
And J, well, I love him.
But not enough, because it's never enough.
And I'm always running to someone else.