On Holiday! 01:39

Well, it's been a while, but I have a fab new qwerty keyboard phone and I AM ON HOLIDAY IN GREECE!!!! Normally, we go camping someplace without a sun, like Scotland, but it is HOT here! I'm lovin' it!!!

The main reason I've not posted in a little while is because me and J broke up, but then we got back together. I figure it was just a tiff. I said things that I didn't meanN and I guess he must've said stuff he didn't mean...

Anyhow, we're back together now and I love him very much. I miss him a lot x

Something Hurts 17:31

I am empty and I am lonely and I am on the very verge of falling off the top of this cliff I've been on for a year and a month.

Do you ever? 16:41

Do ever wonder what happens once we're too tired to carry on, when our bodies are so worn out from lack of energy that they just give up?

Do you ever wonder what dying feels like?

I do.

Last Night 15:20

Regina. Spektor.

Words can't describe the gig last night. It was....breathtaking. I swear she's better live than she is recorded. I love her, she's amazing. Oh....<3 I want to see her again when she's in a better mood. Their cellist died in a tragic accident in Switzerland, and so she was really upset, and didn't need to do much speaking. I feel so sad for her, but she was still amazing. I hope she's okay soon :(

I love her.

On another note...somewhere between 103 and 104, maybe tomorrow I'll wake up and be deffo 103?! :D

Also, my veins are fucked xD Taking a break from drugs soon....Damn being female and damn having unfindable deep veins. I swear it's what's made me lose 8lbs in what....just over a week? Still, underneath this I'm going to post a big notice:



THIS BLOG IS IN NO WAY PROMOTING THE USE OF ILLEGAL SUBSTANCES, FOR WEIGHT LOSS OR ANY OTHER PURPOSE. THEY ARE ILLEGAL FOR A REASON AND SHOULD BE AVOIDED. THE OWNER OF THIS BLOG TAKES NO RESPONSIBILITY FOR THE CONSEQUENCES IF A FOLLOWER EXPERIENCES BAD EFFECTS.

Rested 01:40

Ahh, I feel a bit better now :) I was exhausted from two days on the go lol. Hey, guess what.... 104 104 104 104 104 104 104 104 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OHMYFUCKINGGOD!!!!! Never been this low ever....cept when I was littler, coz to get to 8 stone, you must've been 7...anyways.

I am SO happy. This is amazing! I stayed the same weight no matter what I did for so so so long, then THIS! I don't care what's made it happen, whether it's Phet or Chromium supplements or whatever...I'M JUST SO HAPPY!

I would write a proper post, but my head is banging and I feel like death. Sleeeepy. Still hardly eaten anything, in fact I forced myself to eat about 15 mins ago because I thought I might get better soon with some food and some sleep x Night night

Woke up this morning and: 15:09

I lost another pound!! 106! Pretty amazing. I ate very little of my meal last night, not only because I really wasn't hungry, but because it was a massive portion and so filling. It was spaghetti in this lovely pine nut saucey thing, it was so good! I thought I'd put on weight, especially since I didn't weight myself after the party, and I ate then too. But I lost another pound!! I'm so happy with myself! 5 pounds in...a week? Maybe less! That's really good for me. I haven't eaten today, so maybe another pound tomorrow?!

Also, thanks for the happy birthdays and the concern :) I promise to be safe and not to do it often. J is really quite responsible and refuses to let me do anything risky. I'm surprised he's letting me do it in the first place to be honest, but I'm not complaining when it means I don't eat.

What I'd like to know, with a lot of Amphetamine addicts that are also anorexic/ednos....which came first?
It'd be quite interesting I think :)

Off to read some posts!